NOW IMAGINE ME IMAGINE ME STANDING ON THE STAKE BECAUSE I PRACTICALLY CANNOT MOVE I'M COMPLETELY PARALYZED JUST CAN'T MOVE IT'S A TERRIBLE SITUATION I FIND MYSELF IN EVERY NIGHT THIS IS A TERRIBLE SITUATION TO FIND YOURSELF PRESSED TO THE WALL AND UNABLE TO MOVE AND THAT'S A POSTURE AND THAT'S A POSTURE IT'S A POSTURE I'M USED TO TAKE I FIND MYSELF PRESSED TO THE WALL CANNOT MOVE & IS IT NOT A DREAM BABY IS IT NOT A DREAM YET SO WHAT IS IT SLEEPSTANDING - THIS IS SLEEPSTANDING BECAUSE I CAN'T MOVE ANY MORE NOW WHAT STATE IT IS WHAT STATE IT IS WHAT STATE AM I IN I WONDER I WANNA KNOW MAY I MAY I REQUEST IT WHAT'S THE NAME OF THE STATE WHAT'S THE NAME OF THE STATE WHERE I AM IN WHAT'S THE NAME OF IT I HAVE TO NAME IT AS LONG AS I DON'T NAME IT I'M LOST AND I DON'T KNOW WHERE I AM WHAT IS THIS STATE I CANNOT FLY AWAY I CAN'T FLY LIKE THE THOUGHT I CAN'T FLY AWAY THAT'S THE FARTHEST I CAN REACH BUT I CAN'T FLY I CAN'T FLY I CAN'T FLY PRESSED TO THE WALL I'M PRESSED TO THE WALL & BUT EVEN IF I CAN MOVE AND THAT'S THE SCARIEST IN IT THAT EVEN IF I DETACH AND TRY TO MOVE LIKE A DISSECTED GOLEM THE WALL IS ON MY BACK THE WALL COMES WITH ME I'M NOT IMPRISONED - I AM THE WALL I AM THE PRISON - I AM A PRISON CELL AN OPEN PRISON CELL I AM CORRECT? & IT'S A DANCE MOVE - THE SPANKING GESTURE THE SPANKING GESTURE IS VERY SIMPLE, ISN'T IT THREE IS THE BEST OF IT - ONE OR THREE AND YOU CAN DO IT WITH INVERTED ARMS AND REPEAT IT AS MANY TIMES YOU WANT IT'S A PROCEEDING GESTURE AND THEN CAN HAVE OTHER CLAPPING SOUNDS AND MOTIONS NOT PERMANENTLY BUT AS AN INTERMEZZO IN YOUR DANCE IT'S BREAST SO IT'S NOT LIKE SO - MY CHEST IS BREASTS & IF I HAVE A COMPLEX THAT I DON'T HAVE BREASTS? CHARLOTTE IS POSED A QUESTION LET'S SAY CHARLOTTE GOES TO A PRESS CONFERENCE AND IS POSED A QUESTION HOW DOES IT FEEL - REALLY HOW DOES IT FEEL BECAUSE HORMONES AND ALL THESE THERAPIES CHARLOTTE IS SO FAR OF VERY POOR SHE'S VERY POOR CANNOT AFFORD SUCH THINGS & THIS IS THIS VERY PATHETIC SYMPHONIC BUT NOT BLACK METAL BUT SYMPHONIC METAL METAL SYMPHONY X - VERY PATHETIC BAND IT'S GOOD IT'S RATHER ENTERTAINING NOT DISTURBING REALLY I THINK IT'S VERY NECESSARY TOO THESE ARE NECESSITY BANDS & NOW I DON'T KNOW NOW I DON'T KNOW THIS FRIGHT ALL THE TIME THAT I'M NOT RECORDING LIKE I WOULD LOSE SOMETHING VALUABLE BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I CAN LIVE I'M ON THE DEATH ROW I'M ON THE DEATH ROW, BABY I'M SORRY TO SAY IT'S NOT A FUCKING JOKE - IT'S NOT A JOKE I'M USING MY LAST DROPS OF ENERGY & I DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN THIS BECAUSE YOU CAN'T DESTROY THE WALL WITHOUT DESTROYING ME I AM THE WALL - I AM THE SPIRIT OF THE WALL IF YOU DESTROY MY WALL MY SPIRIT DIES WITH IT DO YOU GET IT DO YOU GET IT & IT'S TRIPLE CONDITIONAL - MAYBE IT'S TRIPLE CONDITIONAL THE WORD SITUATION IS TRIPLE CONDITIONAL ALMOST UNSPEAKABLE BECAUSE HOW CAN YOU SPEAK OUT THE THREE CONDITIONALS AT ONCE YOU CANNOT PROLONG IT THE SENTENCE CANNOT BE PROLONGED IT'S ABBREVIATED IT CANNOT ENUMERATE THE THREE CONDITIONS AND MAKE UP THREE CONDITIONAL TENSES SUBORDINATE TO EACH OTHER - COME ON ANYWAY THEY'RE NOT SUBORDINATE SO HOW YOU MAKE THREE PARALLEL IN ONE RA-HA RA-HU WE HAVE TO ERASE SOME CONDITIONALS FROM ME BECAUSE OTHERWISE I'M JUST STANDING HERE PARALYZED HOLDING THE WALL & WASTED WASTED OLD AGE WASTED OLD AGE ABSOLUTELY WASTED OLD AGE ALL YOUR AGES YOU SEE ALL YOUR AGES BABY ALL YOUR AGES NOW THEY HAVE BEEN WASTED ALL YOUR LIFE HAS BEEN WASTED NOT ON DRUGS NOT ON FUN NOT ON GIRLS, NOT ON BOYS - NOTHING YOU WASTED YOUR LIFE ON THE VERY NOTHING THAT'S WHY YOU HAVE THIS STATIC DREAM FROM CORNER TO CORNER FOR YEARS AND YEARS RUNNING LIKE A RAT VERY SCARED CLOSED IN THE NARROWEST DREAM IT'S FUCKING DISGUSTING ISN'T IT & THIS IS MY SECRET STORY THE SECRET LIFE OF CHARLOTTE IT'S AN AUTOBIOGRAPHY YES, HE WANTED TO TELL ME TO TELL YOU THAT FIRST OF ALL THESE VIDEOS ARE AUTOBIOGRAPHICAL AUTO-BIO-GRAPHICAL THE SENTENCE CANNOT BE ABBREVIATED I AM THE PERIOD AFTER THE SENTENCE AND I WANT TO REDUCE THE NUMBER OF MY CONDITIONS & WHEN YOU KNOW THAT YOU CANNOT HAVE JOY YOU KNOW THAT STATE OF MIND WHAT IS IT - THAT STATE OF MIND WHEN YOU CANNOT HAVE JOY ANY MORE BUT STILL CAN HAVE ALL THE PAIN WHAT IS THAT STATE NO JOY - ALL PAIN & THE MASOCHIST PARADISE I'M IN THE MASOCHIST PARADISE I MUST BE IN THE MASOCHIST PARADISE BUT WHAT AM I DOING HERE, HM WHAT AM I DOING HERE, HA I'M A STRANGER I AM A STRANGER I AM A STRANGER IN THE MASOCHIST PARADISE YOU CAN DO IT WITH THE SALUTE & HELLO WHERE WERE WE WE WERE IN THE MASOCHIST PARADISE I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M HERE - I'M NOT A MASOCHIST EVERY MASOCHIST SAYS SO EVERY MASOCHIST SAYS SO & CHARLOTTE IS DOING A LASCIVIOUS DANCE TO PIG DESTROYER HOW TO COMBINE HARDCORE AND RETRO BECAUSE THERE ARE PEOPLE SAYING FROM THE GOTH SCENE FOR EXAMPLE THAT THIS IS NOT ROCK'N'ROLL - THIS HARDCORE TRASH YOU SEE - WITH THE SAMPLES IN IT HORRIFYING SCARY SAMPLES WELL WHERE IT BELONGS TO IT BELONGS TO THE OPPOSITE TO INDIE ROCK THAT'S WHERE IT BELONGS TO IT'S HARD TO DEFINE THAT TERRITORY THE COMBINATORY POWER OF OUR SPHERE IS REALLY INFINITE THAT'S WHERE INFINITY IS & GRAVEDANCER - THAT'S THE TITLE HERE THAT'S WHAT I WANTED TO SAY THAT WATCHING THESE VIDEOS KEEP IT IN MIND THAT YOU'RE WATCHING 888 ON THE DEATH ROW IT'S 888 ON THE DEATH ROW WHAT YOU'RE WATCHING THROUGH YOUR KEYHOLE & THE MAJOR QUESTION ALWAYS IS WHERE EXACTLY DID I FUCK IT UP WHERE EXACTLY WHAT DID I REALLY DO SO WRONG TO DESERVE THE COMPLETE RULE OF THE THREE M'S MISERY MALADY AND MADNESS ARE COLLABORATING SO YOU CAN'T REALLY MAKE A DEAL LESS MADNESS THEN YOU GET MORE MISERY OR LESS MISERY YOU GET MORE MALADY YA, IT'S A PERFECT SYSTEM OF TRIPLE BALANCE, YOU KNOW THE THREE M'S YOU CANNOT DO NOTHING WITH THEM & BABY HAS SO MUCH SELF-PITY MORE SELF-PITY THAN ANYBODY ELSE WHAT A MISERABLE CREATURE ISN'T IT WHAT A MISERABLE CREATURE 888 ON THE DEATH ROW 888 ON THE DEATH ROW 888 ON THE DEATH ROW IS A MISERABLE CREATURE & OPEN YOUR EYES, BOY GO WATCH TELEVISION SO OPEN YOUR EYES, BOY GO WATCH TELEVISION WATCH THE NEWS OF MURDER AND SLAUGHTER AND MISERY AND MALADY AND THE TOTAL MADNESS YOU WON'T FEEL SO ALONE YOU WON'T FEEL SO ALONE IF YOU WATCH TELEVISION & THE OPPOSITES HAVE DISAPPEARED THERE IS NO TWO SIDES WE HAVE THE RIGHT TO CHOOSE BUT THERE IS NOTHING TO CHOOSE BETWEEN EQUAL ALTERNATIVES ARE THERE THAT FINALLY JUST MULTIPLY THIS IS INFINITY HERE WHAT WE ARE LIVING IN NOW IS INFINITY DISAPPEARANCE OF THE SIDES SHOW IT WHEN THE SIDES DISAPPEAR YOU ENTER INFINITY AND THAT'S WHERE WE ARE AT THIS POINT & IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO DIFFER PAKISTAN FROM URUGUAY THERE IS ONE WORLD THERE IS ONE WORLD THE DRUG WAR IS MUCH UGLIER THAN ANYTHING ELSE WE KNOW ABOUT AND IT'S VERY CLOSE TO HOME WE HAVE FREE TRADE WITH IT DRUG GANG AND THE BOKU HARAM IS ABOUT EQUAL IN THE CRUELTY AND THEN WHAT ABOUT THE SERBS & THE NATIVES ARE QUITE EQUAL MAKE NO MISTAKE ABOUT IT SO WE LIVE IN A CRIMINAL WORLD THERE ARE THESE SCHOOLGIRLS THAT WERE KIDNAPPED AND MOST OF THEM DIED OR PROSTITUTED INTO MARRIAGES AND THEN SOME OF THEM ARE MAYBE STILL ALIVE OR NOT THEY WOULDN'T TELL THE PEOPLE ARE CRYING AND SOME CELEBRITIES ALSO SAY THAT BRING OUR GIRLS HOME WHAT YOU MEAN BRING OUR GIRLS HOME WHAT WILL YOU SAY WHEN IT'S YOUR GIRLS SO WHY DON'T YOU SAY: BRING THOSE GIRLS HOME THAT'S THE FIRST THING TO SAY - THAT'S FINE BUT THAT WOULD BE CONSIDERED TOO CONDESCENDING, RIGHT OR WOULD EVEN INJURE THE PEOPLE & I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU MAY SAY EXACTLY BUT THE NIGERIAN LADIES DEMONSTRATING IN THE STREET LOUDLY CRYING WITH BRING OUR GIRLS HOME THEY ARE TOTALLY IGNORED - IT'S LIKE A CURIOSITY REALLY THAT SUCH THINGS ARE HAPPENING SO INTERESTING, NO AND IT'S A HORRIBLY HUGE NATION MANY MANY TRIBES AND THEY ARE ALL FIGHTING AND EVERYBODY'S FIGHTING IN AFRICA EVERYBODY'S FIGHTING THE OTHER TRIBE & THE AFRICAN TRIBALISM THAT BROKE OUT AFTER THE COLONIALIST ERA RIGHT AWAY - NOT RIGHT AWAY THERE WAS A LITTLE TRANSITION HERE AND THERE KONGO HAD A TRANSITION AND OF COURSE SOUTH AFRICA HAD THIS SPECTACULAR TRANSITION LEADING WORSE THAN NOWHERE THE FIRST LEADERS OF THESE LIBERATED NATIONS WERE ALWAYS RATHER GOOD THEY WEREN'T CORRUPT MAD SADISTIC TYRANTS I DON'T THINK THERE IS A SINGLE PERSON THERE WITHOUT HATE FOR ANOTHER TRIBE AND THEY ARE BOTH EQUALLY CRIMINAL IT'S THE MASSES OF MURDERERS IT'S THE MASSES OF MURDERERS & COLONIALISM WAS THE GREATEST BLESSING FOR THE THIRD WORLD THERE'S NO QUESTION ABOUT IT COLONIALISM WAS THE GREATEST BLESSING FOR THE WORLD BALANCE EVER LIVED HINDU AGAINST MUSLIM, MUSLIM AGAINST CHRISTIAN, CHRISTIAN AGAINST JEW IT'S THE SAME OLD MAP - I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M LOOKING FOR ON IT I JUST CAN'T FOLLOW IT I CAN'T UNDERSTAND I CAN'T AGREE WITH ANY SIDE & MASSES OF MASS MURDERERS AND THAT'S WHAT FILL THE TELEVISION SCREEN AND THEN SOME GOOD INTERVIEWS SOMETIMES IN-BETWEEN WITH JOHNNY DEPP I REALLY WANT ANOTHER FROM THAT APPLE