FUCK IT ALL UP FUCK UP EVERYTHING FUCK UP EVERYTHING YOU FUCK UP EVERYTHING YOU FUCK UP EVERYTHING YOU FUCKED UP EVERYTHING AND YOU WILL FUCK UP EVERYTHING & I WANT TO EXCUSE WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT TO MOVE BECAUSE MOST OF THE TIMES I JUST GET STATIC OR PARALYZED OR JUST WALKING UP AND DOWN LIKE NOW WHY IT IS SO DIFFICULT TO MOVE IS BECAUSE I'M DANCING A CORPSE I'M DANCING A CORPSE WHAT STANDS HERE BEFORE THE CAMERA IS A CORPSE THERE IS A BIO - THEY CAN READ IT I WROTE MY BIO THEY CAN READ IT ANY TIME IN THAT BIO IT'S CLEARLY DESCRIBED HOW I HAVE DIED & BECAUSE I WENT TOO FAR 'CAUSE I WENT TOO FAR I WENT TOO FAR, YES I KNEW IT ALREADY IN '79 I WENT TOO FAR - I HAD TO BE STOPPED AND CLOSED IN A ROOM LIKE A BEAST AND THEN TRY TO MOVE THERE TRY TO DANCE DANCE LITTLE BEAST - DANCE TO A COUNTRY SONG DANCE LITTLE BEAST DANCE TO A SONG & SO CHARLOTTE DID YOU APOLOGIZE FOR THE LACK OF MOTION DID YOU TELL THEM DID YOU TELL THEM CHARLOTTE WHAT'S MY PROBLEM IT'S THE MOST PRIVATE VIDEO YOU'VE EVER SEEN & SO LET ME TELL ABOUT 1984 1984 IT'S NOW SINCE 1984 BECAUSE IN 1984 TIME HAS DIED FO-FO-FO-FORMALLY AND SINCE 1984 THE MIDDLE AGES ARE COMING BACK ISLAMIC INVASION STARTED IN 1984 IN MASS MEASURES IT STARTED END OF THE 1970'S OF COURSE MOST PARTICULARLY 1978, '79, '80 DURING THESE THREE YEARS & OH I DON'T WANT TO GIVE A LECTURE ABOUT TIME I'M NOT A LECTURER I DON'T KNOW THE FACTS AT ALL NO, I'M NOT PROUD OF IT ANY MORE I'M DAMN ASHAMED OF IT BY NOW BUT I CAN'T HELP IT ANY MORE I HAVE TO DO IT WITHOUT KNOWLEDGE NO CHANCE I HAVE KNOWLEDGE IN MY CASE IS FORBIDDEN - DON'T KNOW WHY VERY MUCH I'D LIKE TO BE KNOWLEDGEABLE I WOULD VERY MUCH LIKE TO BE KNOWLEDGEABLE AND THEN KNOW THINGS BUT I'M NOT I'M A MA-MA-MACHINE BUT I CAN'T EVEN SWITCH ON BECAUSE I'M A CORPSE A CORPSE & I'M EXPERIENCING HERE DIFFERENT STAGES OF HUMAN EXISTENCE THAT'S MY WORK I'M A SPY LIVING IN DIFFERENT HUMAN EXISTENCES LEARNING IT FROM WITHIN HOW THESE DIFFERENT STAGES ARE I'VE NEVER BEEN UPPER I'M NOT ALLOWED TO GO UPPER EXACTLY BECAUSE OF IT - THE AUTHENTICITY'S SAKE I HAVE NEVER BEEN IN A SOCIETY OR A MEMBER OF ANYTHING SOCIAL OR HAD ACQUAINTANCES WHO WOULD INVITE ME TO A PARTY OF THEIRS & FASHION IS RAVING TODAY FINALLY THEY HAVE UNDERSTOOD SOME OF THEM ALL OF THEM OF COURSE BUT SOME OF THEM EVEN CONSCIOUSLY THAT THIS IS THE ABSOLUTE ENDZEIT FOR OUR CIVILIZATION AT LEAST AND EVERYBODY KNOWS IT AND EVERYBODY IS UNPREPARED THEY CANNOT SAVE IT - WE DON'T EVEN HAVE TO IF VERSAILLES IS TURNED INTO A MOSQUE DON'T HAVE TO DO NOTHING NOTHING IS FINE DON'T HAVE TO FIGHT IT WHEN THE GATES OF PARADISE ALL OVER OPENED WHEN THE FREEDOM CAME WE CAN BE ONE - DOESN'T NEED TOURISM BECAUSE I'M AN EMIGRANT TOO - I KNOW I AM AN EMIGRANT TOO I AM AN EMIGRANT TOO I'M AN EMIGRANT SO I KNOW I SHOULD KNOW THE STATUS OF EMIGRATION SOMEWHAT IN A GRACIOUS MANNER BECAUSE I DIDN'T EMIGRATE REALLY FROM HUNGER NOT FROM HUNGER I EMIGRATED FROM AMBITION DON'T THINK THAT IT'S ALL CONSPIRACY THERE IS AN INSTINCT STILL MOST INTELLIGENT PART OF THE HUMAN BRAINS THAT CAN SEE THE FUTURE THAT HAS THIS URGE TO FINISH IT FAST DON'T WAIT OUT THE END OF THE AGONY & THE CONCEPT OF OSP WAS TO CENTRALIZE THIS FORCE EVERYTHING WILL BE LOST VERY SOON SO IT'S TIME FOR DEBAUCHERY FOR TOTAL DEBAUCHERY IT'S TIME FOR SEX VERSUS VIOLENCE SEX VERSUS VIOLENCE IT'S A REAL WARFARE NOW IT'S NOT LIKE MAKE LOVE NOT WAR IT'S A REAL WARFARE NOW THAT'S WHY THEY CALL IT SATANIST BECAUSE JOHN LENNON WAS NOT A SATANIST NOW THEY SAY THAT HE WAS BUT YOU KNOW THEY SAY ANYTHING ABOUT ANYONE ANYMORE IT DOESN'T MATTER - IT MATTERS THE PUBLIC IMAGE AND THE PUBLIC IMAGE OF LENNON WAS NOT A SATANIST IT WAS WHAT WAS IT - MARXIST & WE OPENED THE GATES OF PARADISE FOR EVERYONE BUT WHAT WE DID IS THAT WE OPENED THE GATES OF THE PAST THERE'S A SHARIA FOR BELGIUM MOVEMENT JUST READ IT SHARIA 4 BELGIUM - IT'S A NUMBER FOUR WRITTEN IN IT VERY MODERN - BRITISH 4 YOU KNOW THE EUROPEANS STOPPED PROPAGATING THE EUROPEANS STOPPED PROPAGATING THE WHITE RATS ARE DYING OUT OH THE BEST WHITE RATS ARE ALL DYING OUT THEY WANTED TO GO TO PARADISE BUT OPENED THE GATES OF THE PAST INSTEAD YA ALRIGHT & OSH IS LIKE THIS - THAT HE SAYS THAT WELL IF ALLAH WANTS IT SO MUCH GIVE IT TO HIM GIVE IT TO HIM AS A GIFT - HAVE THE EARTH, I DON'T CARE THAT'S HOW HE'LL DEAL WITH IT AND IT'S NOT BIN LADEN BIN LADEN IS A BEAUTIFUL REPRESENTATIVE OF IT BIN LADEN IS A GREAT DECEPTION BIN LADEN IS LIKE LaVEY IT'S EXACTLY THE SAME PERFECTION BIN LADEN IS A SPOKESMAN OF ISLAM IT'S A BEAUTIFUL SAINT COME ALIVE TO REPRESENT IT & I'M SO DEPRESSED ALMOST CANNOT BREATHE OH I'M SO DEPRESSED I ALMOST CANNOT BREATHE I LOOK LIKE UNGRATEFUL BECAUSE I COMPLAIN ALL THE TIME BUT I AM VERY GRATEFUL IF I CAN HAVE MY SOAP AND PEANUT BUTTER I AM VERY GRATEFUL ALWAYS VERY GRATEFUL AND I'M BEGGING FOR MORE, YES IN THE MEANTIME I'M BEGGING FOR MORE GRATEFUL I AM OSSSHH & THE TWO THINGS WE HAVE TO GET RID OF ARE THE FOLLOWING: THOUGHT AND EMOTION THOUGHT AND EMOTION THOUGHT AND EMOTION IT'S A BIG JOB A VERY BIG JOB GOSPEL IS ALWAYS VERY GOOD FOR ME GOSPEL IT RELIEVES MY SOUL GOSPEL MUSIC IS MY RESCUER YES IT'S GOING HARDER AND HARDER WE CALL IT EVEN LIKE THAT HARDER SINCE ITS BIRTH ROCK IS GOING HARDER HARDER AND HARDER AND CAN TELL ME OF COURSE THAT BY THE TIME RELATION NOTHING'S HARDER THAN LITTLE RICHARD AND YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY RIGHT BECAUSE THIS IS A CLOSED CIRCLE OUROBORIC WORLD WE LIVE IN OUROBORIC WORLD WE LIVE IN AND THERE IS NO WAY OUT OF IT EVERYTHING SWALLOWS ITSELF FIRST EVERYTHING SUCKS AND THEN EVERYTHING SWALLOWS ITSELF IMPLOSION WE CALL IT IMPLOSION & WE CANNOT MAKE COMPARISONS WITH THE IMMATERIAL 'CAUSE THE IMMATERIAL IS MAKING COMPARISONS WITH US THAT WE ARE THE REFLECTION OF IT BUT IT DOESN'T RECEIVE OUR REFLECTION WE ARE A REFLECTION BUT IT DOESN'T RECEIVE OUR REFLECTION FORSAKEN WE ARE FORSAKEN WE CALL IT FORSAKEN IF YOU ARE ABLE TO GRASP ATHEISM AS NON-RELIGION AS SOMETHING NEW WE CALL IT CHURCH BECAUSE WHAT ELSE TO CALL IT WE CANNOT FIGURE OUT A NEW TERM FOR A CONCEPT LIKE CHURCH HAVE TO LIVE WITH IT BUT IT IS NOT A CHURCH FOR EXAMPLE IT DOESN'T HAVE TEMPLES AND SO ON YOU KNOW, IT'S VERY OLD TIME RELIGION & YES WE CAN BUILD TEMPLES, YES BUT WE CAN BUILD TEMPLE FOR ANYONE WE WANT TO WE CAN BUILD A TEMPLE FOR LUCIFER WE CAN BUILD A TEMPLE FOR ISIS YOU WORSHIP ANYONE OSHISM IS TOTALLY FREE HAND AS LONG AS YOU ARE TOLERANT TO EACH OTHER'S EVERY INDIVIDUAL CAN HAVE HIS OWN DEITY TO WORSHIP OR WORK OUT YOUR OWN CHURCH COMBINED LIKE THIS JEWISH GAY PRIDE GUY I JUST READ ABOUT TODAY A CROSS-DRESSER GAY AND ORTHODOX JEW THAT'S WHY ISRAEL HAS THE RIGHT TO EXIST THAT ISRAEL IS SO GAY TOLERANT IT SHOWS VERY CLEARLY HOW MUCH IT'S THE LAST TOWER OF CIVILIZATION THERE IN ITS HOMELAND - SURROUNDED BY THE HUGEST ENEMY AVAILABLE OSP IS PRO-ISRAELITE IN THAT REGARD OF THE GEO-POLITICS ON THE OTHER HAND PHILOSOPHICALLY SPEAKING THE JEWS SHOULDN'T HAVE AN OWN STATE PER SE & IT'S CONFUSING YOU KNOW EPIPHANY KEEPS YOU CONFUSED SO MUCH THAT YOU CANNOT DO NOTHING BUT CONTRADICT TO YOURSELF THAT'S WHERE EPIPHANY LIVES DON'T ATTEMPT EPIPHANY - YOU DON'T REALLY NEED TO NEVER ATTEMPT EPIPHANY - IT'S A VERY DANGEROUS THING MOST DANGEROUS THAT CAN HAPPEN TO YOU SOMETIMES IT'S THE WORST THAT CAN HAPPEN TO YOU & IT'S EASY TO UNDERSTAND POLITICS OF GEOMETRY IN A WORD - MOST ANCIENT KNOWLEDGE, RIGHT THAT'S THE FIRST THING WE LEARNED BEFORE EVERYTHING ELSE IT WAS GEOMETRY - THAT'S WHAT WE ARE BASED UPON THE HUMAN MIND WAS TRAINED THROUGH GEOMETRY AND THAT'S HOW IT REMAINED IT'S A GEOMETRIC MIND WE HAVE AND HISTORY IS THE EVOLUTION OF GEOMETRY AND POLITICS OF GEOMETRY IS CALLING OUT FOR THE WAR OF SYMBOLS THAT'S ABOUT CORRECT THAT'S ABOUT CORRECT BECAUSE IT WAS A WHOLE SENTENCE BUT TRUE IT'S NOT TRUE IT'S NOT & THE PHENOMENON OF THE UFO HUNGER IS VERY DEPRESSING THE PRAYER THE PRAYER THE SADDEST VIEW THE TRUTH IS NOT THERE - THE TRUTH IS IN THE SYMBOLS SYMBOLS NEVER WILL SHATTER - DON'T WORRY, NO NO NO NO SYMBOLS WERE THERE BEFORE US SYMBOLS WERE THERE BEFORE THE WORD THE WORD WAS BORN OUT OF SYMBOLS IT'S NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND NOT THE WORD CREATES SYMBOLS - HOW COULD IT APOLLINAIRE MAYBE - BUT IN THE GENERAL POESIS - I ONLY CAN WRITE POEMS I ONLY CAN WRITE POEMS I ONLY CAN WRITE POEMS I CAN'T WRITE AN ESSAY ABOUT SYMBOLS I DON'T KNOW NOTHING ABOUT SYMBOLS I UNDERSTAND THAT THEY WERE BEFORE ME I WILL NEVER GROW UP TO THEM THAT'S ALL I KNOW WHATEVER I TRY TO SAY & EVERYBODY WANTS TO BECOME A SYMBOL THAT'S OUR MAIN DESIRE THE RIGHTEOUS HUMAN DESIRE AND I DON'T WANT TO BE FREE OF IT BUT I COULDN'T FIGURE IT OUT YET I'M WORKING ON IT I'M TRYING TO FIND MY SYMBOL IN THE DARK TUNNEL OF THE BARDO OOO MY GOD OOO BABY DON'T GET ME WRONG IT'S A SACRIFICIAL GESTURE I'M NOT ACCUSING MYSELF WITH ANYTHING INNOCENT I'M INNOCENT LIKE A NEW-BORN LAMB REALLY DON'T EVEN CROSS-DRESS FROM URGE I CROSS-DRESS FROM DUTY I DO EVERYTHING FROM DUTY I'M INNOCENT