EVEN LIKE THAT I DON'T LOOK I TRY TO SHUT MY EYES WIDE OPEN BUT THEY ARE STILL CLOSED I'M STILL VIRTUALLY BLIND I SEE THE CAMERA BUT I DON'T SEE MYSELF I'M NOT AN ACTOR THAT'S THE PROBLEM WITH ME I CAN'T IMPERSONATE ANOTHER CHARACTER AT THE SAME TIME I DON'T SEE MYSELF & YOU CALL THIS A LOST SOUL OSH SAYS TO ME ALL YOU ARE IS A LOST SOUL NOTHING ELSE YOU CAN CALL YOURSELF CHARLOTTE YOU CAN CALL YOURSELF SPIEL! YOU CAN CALL YOURSELF DJ HELMUT YOU CAN CALL YOURSELF ALEPH YOU CAN CALL YOURSELF 888 BUT YOU'RE JUST A LOST SOUL, AREN'T YOU & GO GO TO THE GUTTER WHERE YOU CAME FROM GO BACK WHERE YOU CAME FROM BEFORE YOUR GENES GO BACK BEFORE YOUR GENES FROM BEFORE YOU CAME - GO BACK THERE BEFORE THE GENES, YEAH 'CAUSE YOU HAVE TO WASH YOUR GENES NOBODY CAN WASH YOUR GENES THEY CAN WASH YOUR BRAINS - THEY CAN'T WASH YOUR GENES YOUR GENES YOU HAVE TO WASH NOTHING ELSE CAN YOU ARE SUPPLIED GREAT DETERGENTS & THE UKRAINIAN TROOPS OF EITHER SIDE THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND IT THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND IT TO SACRIFICE YOUR LIFE FOR A PATRIA IS HELL'S FIRST DEGREE DECEPTION THE PATRIA, OH THE PATRIA AND THEN THE LIBERTY - THE LIBERTY & THE OSP HAS NO PATRIA IT'S A VIRTUAL LAND THE OVERNATION IT'S COVERING THE GLOBE - IT'S NOT ON THE MAP IT'S A SPIRIT COVERING THE GLOBE THE WHOLE GLOBE THERE'S NOTHING TO DIE FOR IT'S BAD ENOUGH THAT WE HAVE TO DIE AND IT'S BAD ENOUGH THAT WE CANNOT CONTROL HOW BUT TO DIE FOR SOMETHING IT'S RANKING THE WORST CRIME AGAINST OSH & BECAUSE THERE IS ONLY OSH AND OSH IS THERE FOR EVERYONE OSH IS THE AIR OF THE EARTH OSH AND NOW WE LEARNED TO PERSONIFY IT & THE NAME OF MY SUPERSTAR FOR THE NIGHT IS LONI THE GREATEST STARS TODAY ARE PORN STARS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND THE MOST TALENTED CASTING IS ONE GENRE OF PORNOGRAPHY CASTING FOR PORN MOVIE MADE ABOUT ITSELF FELLINI - I WOULD LIKE IF HE HAD A LOOK AT THIS THESE CASTING PORNS BECAUSE THEY ARE VERY VERY INTERESTING IT'S VERY INTELLIGENT PORN THE CASTING OF A PORN STAR IS FILMED THE MALES ARE SELDOM CAST BY FEMALES I HAVEN'T SEEN THAT YET MAYBE THAT'S THE NEXT THING FEMALE CASTING AGENTS - THAT'S A GOOD IDEA MAYBE IT EXISTS ALREADY & THIS WOMAN WHO IS PROBABLY A PERFECT UNKNOWN IS MUCH GREATER THAN MARILYN A LOT GREATER ACTRESS MARILYN MONROE OPENED THE GATE OF HEAVEN IT LEADS TO CREAMPIE WHAT'S WRONG WITH THAT IT'S A GREAT EVOLUTION IN OVERCOMING BLACK MAGIC I KNOW THE HEALTH ISSUES - CAN COME UP HEALTH ISSUES BUT I THINK THAT'S EASY TO CURE, NO? AIDS FOR EXAMPLE IS STILL THERE? & I REMEMBER 1989 WHEN WE CAMPAIGNED AGAINST IT AGAINST THE SICKNESS AIDS WE ORGANISED A DEMONSTRATION AGAINST THE SICKNESS THAT'S WHAT WE WANTED TO ORGANISE BUT THEY DIDN'T JOIN US - THE GAYS DID NOT JOIN US AN AIDS CONFERENCE WAS THERE IN THE CITY AND WE WANTED TO DEMONSTRATE NOT AGAINST THE GOVERNMENT BUT AGAINST THE SICKNESS BUT THEY DIDN'T UNDERSTAND ME THEY DIDN'T UNDERSTAND ME DOWN WITH THE SICKNESS WAS ONE OF THE PLACARDS KILL THE VIRUS WAS ANOTHER THERE WAS KILL THE CRIME OF COURSE AS WELL WE SMUGGLED INTO IT PARTY SLOGANS SAVE SEX WAS ALSO IN IT NOW THAT WAS, WHEN, THAT IS IN '89 THAT'S WHEN THE JOE ROSE TRUST FUND WAS ESTABLISHED IT WAS AGAINST VIOLENCE - VIOLENCE AND AIDS JOE ROSE HE HAD HIS SHARE OF BOTH JOE ROSE IS OUR MAJOR MARTYR PATRON SAINT OF THE ATHEIST CHURCH JOE ROSE FOR EVER FOR EVER FOR EVER & THE ONLY JOB I WOULD LIKE TO APPLY FOR IS TO BE A REVIEWER OF PORN PORN REVIEWER I WOULD LIKE TO BE THE MOST I COULD EXPRESS EVERYTHING THERE WHAT I WANT TO SAY COULD BE A PERFECT INDEPENDENT VOICE THAT I COULD WRITE VERY WELL EVEN CONTRIBUTE TO THE EVOLUTION OF IT & YOU HAVE TWO EVOLUTIONARY CHOICES THE ONE THAT LEADS TO HELL AND THE OTHER ONE THAT LEADS TO HEAVEN WHERE YOU WANNA GO EVERYBODY SAYS HELL WE WANNA GO TO HELL EVERYBODY WHO HAS ANY METAL IN HIS HEAD WE'D LIKE TO COME BEFORE IT YES WE UNDERSTAND WE HAVE TO GO THERE SO WE WANNA GO THERE VOLUNTARILY AT LEAST SOME DIGNITY LEFT - PARTICIPATE PARTICIPATE & THIS IS LORETTA - LORETTA LYNN SHE'S A SECOND COUSIN SHE BELONGS TO MY TREE I HAVE MY FAMILY TREE I'VE DESIGNED MY FAMILY TREE BY MY INFLUENCES MY CAULDRON - I'M DESIGNING MY CAULDRON BY CONNECTING THE WORLD FROM THE VACUUM I LIVE IN & I LIVE IN A VACUUM AND DON'T TELL ME IT'S NOT TRUE DON'T TELL ME THAT IT'S MY IMAGINATION DON'T TELL ME THAT IT'S MY WEAKNESS DON'T TELL ME NOTHING DON'T TELL ME NOTHING BECAUSE I KNOW EVERYTHING DON'T TELL ME NOTHING MORE BECAUSE I KNOW NOW EVERYTHING AND YOU WON'T DECEIVE ME AGAIN WITH MENACES AND PROMISES MENACES AND PROMISES & HAVE YOU SEEN IT BROKE THE BLANKET WITH THE LEG MOTION I BROKE THE BLANKET BROKE MY BLANKET INTO TWO MY PLATFORM IS INDEED HALVED NOW BECAUSE OF THIS LEG MOTION & NOW THIS IS NOT A CONFESSIONAL I WON'T KEEP THIS ON THE TAPE BECAUSE IT'S TOO PERSONAL, RIGHT THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I DON'T WANNA BE THIS LAMENTING WAILING JEW I DON'T WANNA BE I DON'T BLOODY CARE ABOUT THE TEMPLE I DON'T CARE ABOUT THE TEMPLE I DON'T CARE ABOUT THE TEMPLE & I - I I I I I START EVERY SENTENCE WITH THIS I I - I ALWAYS HAVE TO SPEAK FROM INSIDE OUT AND THEN I THINK I AM MEDIATING BUT I DON'T SAY NOTHING - I SAY I I SAY I - NOTHING ELSE I KNOW I I I I EXPERIENCE MY LIFE AS I WAS AN ASTRONAUT AND THIS DREAMSPHERE WHEREIN I'M TRAVELING AS IF IT WAS MY SPACESHIP AND I FEEL BEING ON A MISSION ALONE WHAT IS IT MY SWEET DOCTORS DEAR JUNG DEAR ADLER WHAT IS IT EXACTLY THAT SENSATION IS IT PARALLEL REALITY OR A DERAILED FICTION & AND THE WORST PART OF IT IS THAT I AM ALONE IN THE SPACESHIP OF THIS DREAM CAPSULE BUT I'M NOT DRIVING IT I DON'T KNOW WHERE IS IT GOING AND I'M NOT TELLING THIS TO SHOW TO OSH WHAT A GREAT LITTLE POET I AM WHO CAN FICTIONALIZE HIS MISERY SO BEAUTIFULLY AND MODERN INCREDIBLE CAPACITY OF THE HUMAN BRAINS THAT'S WHAT IT SHOWS, RIGHT THE INCREDIBLE CAPACITY OF HUMAN IMAGINATION (THE SNOOPY VERSUS THE RED BARON - 1966) & OSH - I HAVEN'T MENTIONED ONE VERY IMPORTANT FUNCTIONAL UTILIZATION OF THE OSHIST BREATHING BESIDE THE EXHALATION EXERCISE OSH AS A LAST EXHALE THAT'S THE MAJOR FUNCTION OF IT IT'S ADVISED TO ABSOLUTELY EVERYONE TO DEPART WITH THIS UTTERANCE OSH THAT'S HOW YOU GIVE UP THE SOUL THE BEST THAT'S THE MAIN FUNCTION OF OSH THE OTHER IS SMOKING ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU SMOKE WEED OR SUBSTANCES OPIUM ESPECIALLY SO YOU BREATHE IN WITH O AND BREATHE OUT WITH SHHH IT'S NATURAL, RIGHT THAT'S HOW YOU HAVE TO SMOKE PIPES OOO-SHHH TILL YOU EMPTY YOUR LUNG, NNA & THIS IS GESTURE SCHOOL MEMORY I MENTIONED IT BEFORE BUT THIS IS MY LECTURE THE SELF-CROSSING CROSSING YOURSELF WITH THIS SIGN OF THE AERO DYNAMICS IN STEAD OF PUTTING THE CROSS ON YOU 1-2-3-4 - 1-2-3-4 1 2 3 4 BECAME 1 2 3 4 YOU CAN DO IT WITH THE OTHER HAND TOO IT DOESN'T MATTER THESE ARE YOGA EXERCISES THE GESTURES ARE CONSIDERABLE AS YOGA EXERCISES NOT ELSE YOGA IS NOT JUST FORGETTING ALL THE UNIVERSE NOT, NOT THE ALIEN YOGA THE ALIEN YOGA IS THE CONTRARY THE ALIEN YOGA FUSES THE UNIVERSE FUSES THE UNIVERSE IN A GESTURE & OSH IS A GATE IT'S NOT AFTERLIFE THERE IS NO LIFE AFTER DEATH, À PROPOS THERE IS NO LIFE AFTER DEATH, À PROPOS MUST BE READY - YOU MUST BE ABSOLUTELY PREPARED DEATH IS UNKNOWN AND IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH LIFE AS WE KNOW IT LAST EXHALE HAS TO BE OSH AND THEN IT'S GOOD THEN IT'S STRAIGHT THEN YOU GET OUT OF IT LAST EXHALE THAT'S YOUR STEP OUT THROUGH THE GATE - OSH BECAUSE OSH IS THE GATE CHILDREN OSH IS THE GATE & BECAUSE WE ARE CROSS-BRED BECAUSE WE ARE CROSS BRED WE ARE NOT A CLEAN RACE WE ARE NOT A CLEAN RACE PEOPLE TRY TO BE CLEANER BY RACES SOME RACES THINK THEY ARE PURER SOMETIMES SOMETIMES IT'S TRUE SOMEWHAT BUT IT DOESN'T MATTER IT DOESN'T MATTER DOESN'T MATTER BECAUSE WE ARE ALL CROSSBRED CROSSBRED BY WHO BY WHO DEVILS ARE THERE, ANGELS ARE THERE ANIMALS OF ALL SORTS - TO EVOLVE FROM GRADUALLY - CROSSBRED OF WHAT ANGEL AND CROCODILE FOR EXAMPLE CROSSBRED OF AN ANGEL AND A CROCODILE THAT'S A TERRIBLE FICTION ISN'T IT HOW COULD AN ANGEL COPULATE WITH A CROCODILE MAYBE A DEVIL COULD MAYBE WE ARE THE CROSSBRED OF A DEVIL AND A CROCODILE THAT SOUNDS MORE LOGICAL, YA