THIS IS THE LOOK-OUT THIS IS THE LOOK-OUT THAT'S THE LOOK-OUT GESTURE & AT ONE POINT I FELL IN LOVE WITH MY SHADOW IN STEAD OF TAKING MORE CARE OF MY BODY I BEGAN TO CORRECT MY SHADOW AND I NEGLECTED THE BODY BE VERY CAREFUL OF SHADOWS THE SHADOWS CAN POSSESS YOU YOUR OWN SHADOW CAN POSSESS YOU BEWARE OF SHADOWS AND THE SHADOWS LIE & FIRST THING I AM I WILL DESCRIBE YOU WHAT I AM WHAT BETTER I CAN DO FIRST THING I AM IS A HYPOCRITE I'M A HYPOCRITE EVERYTHING I SAY IS HYPOCRITICAL HYPO-CRITICAL THE JEW WANTS TO BE PRECISE DOESN'T WANT TO BE CAUGHT EVERYTHING HE SAYS IS BLUFF BUT DOESN'T WANT TO BE CAUGHT I HAVE SO MANY PROBLEMS WITH MY ALIASES ALL OF THEM ARE MONSTROUS & CHARLOTTE DOESN'T WANT TO LIVE CHARLOTTE CHARLOTTE SHE DOESN'T WANT TO LIVE WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH HER CHARLOTTE CHARLOTTE HIDING BEHIND THE DARKNESS OF MY SOUL THIS IS A LABOUR - I'M TRYING TO GIVE BIRTH I'M PREGNANT ALLEGORICALLY SPEAKING ALLEGORICALLY SPEAK I'M DOOMED BABY I'M DOOMED I HAVE TO ALLEGORICALLY SPEAK I CANNOT SAY IT STRAIGHT THERE IS NO STRAIGHT WAY TO SAY IT & I SAY IT STRAIGHT I SAY KILL THE CRIME I SAY NOTHING ELSE THREE TIMES WE WERE ASKED SOMETHING AND ALL THE THREE TIMES THAT WAS IT WHAT IS CRIME WHAT IS CRIME THAT'S THE QUESTION I HAD A PERFECT ANSWER FOR IT I STILL HAVE A PERFECT ANSWER FOR IT AND THAT'S THE ANSWER FOR IT: CRIME IS THAT WILLFULLY HURTS ANOTHER THIS IS AN ELECTORAL CAMPAIGN, BABY THAT'S HOW IT LOOKS BECAUSE I'M THE LEADER OF THE SOLITARY THAT'S HOW I LEAD & SO BESIDE THE HYPOCRISY I AM A THIEF THAT'S THE SECOND THING I AM FIRST OF ALL I HAVE A GREAT PRAXIS IN IT BECAUSE I LIVED ON SHOPLIFTING FOR YEARS TWO TIMES ARRESTED ONLY FOR IT THIS GOES BACK TO THE EARLY EIGHTIES WHEN THE SURVEILLANCE WAS MUCH LOWER IT WAS EASIER - TODAY I WOULDN'T DARE TO STEAL I WOULDN'T DARE TO IT DOESN'T BELONG TO MY CHARACTER THIS TIME I WAS ACTIVE BEFORE 1984 SINCE THEN THE PASSIVITY BECAUSE OF THE DEATH FACTOR I HAPPENED TO DIE IN 1984 IT WAS SOFT VERY GRACIOUS BUT COMPLETE NOW I EVEN HAVE MY MIND TAKEN MY MEMORY BUT I STILL REMEMBER EVERY SHIT NEW THINGS I CANNOT LEARN NOR REMEMBER WHAT I LEARNED I DON'T REMEMBER ANYTHING I LEARNED I REMEMBER EVERYTHING I EXPERIENCED & OSSHH YES I AM A THIEF NOT ONLY BECAUSE OF THE PRAXIS BUT OF COURSE THAT I'M STEALING TIME I'M STEALING THE SPACE EVERYTHING I OWN I STEAL NOTHING NOTHING IS MINE ALL MY THOUGHTS ARE STOLEN I STEAL THE AIR I'M BREATHING IN I'M STEALING IT I'M NOT EVEN ALIVE MY OWN TIME OWN TIME I DON'T HAVE AT ALL I DON'T HAVE AN AGENDA SINCE 1984 I HAVE NO AGENDA I BUY IT EVERY YEAR AND I'M WRITING IN WHAT I HAVE TO DO LIKE GO TO THE DENTIST OR GO TO THE RADIO THAT'S ONE REGULAR WEEKLY THAT'S THE WEEKLY ENTRY: GO TO THE RADIO ON THURSDAY AND THEN THE DIFFERENT OFFICIAL NECESSITIES - AND THAT'S IT BUT THERE IS NOTHING ELSE IN MY AGENDA THERE ARE NO MEETINGS OR EVENTS & AFTER I DIED I MET A LOT OF PEOPLE YET BUT ABSOLUTELY DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO BEHAVE ANY MORE DEAD CANNOT BEHAVE THE DEAD UUUU I'M UNCIVILIZED JUST SIMULATE POLITENESS - DON'T BELIEVE IN IT I'M EXTREMELY IMPOLITE - I'M JUST SIMULATING IT IT BELONGS TO HYPOCRISY BUT THERE IS MORE TO IT THAT'S MY THIRD CHARACTERISTIC THAT I'M VERY EVIL EVERY NICE GESTURE I DO FROM EVIL ALL MY CREATIVITY GOES INTO THE POLITE BEHAVIOUR AND THAT I CONSIDER REVENGE I'M SIMULATING SOMEBODY AND I DO IT ALRIGHT SO FAR NOW I DON'T SCREAM ANY MORE BEFORE 1984 I WAS A SCREAMER AFTER 1984 FOR A COUPLE OF YEARS I MADE SOME HYSTERIAS IN PUBLIC PLACES LIKE, YOU KNOW, THE EASIEST AT THE WAITER OR THE SALESPERSON AND THEN I CALMED DOWN SOMEWHAT LAST TIME I SCREAMED IT WAS AT THE HOSPITAL AT THE NURSE - AGAIN THE CHEAPEST POSSIBLE BUT I WAS SCREAMING ALL THE TIME BESIDES IT AS WELL WITH A REASON & MADNESS TAKES MANY FORMS AND SHAPES MY MADNESS IS ALL OF IT I'M TOTAL - I'M THE TOTAL MADNESS I'M NOT CRIMINALLY INSANE I'M NON-CRIMINALLY INSANE WHAT IS THE OPPOSITE TO CRIMINAL - THE CITIZEN CRIMINAL AND CITIZEN I'M CITIZENLY CITIZENLY INSANE CITIZEN INSANE & A COWARD THAT'S THE NEXT THING I AM A HYPOCRITE, A COWARD (THAT'S THE SECOND), A THIEF - I'M PRETENDING TO BE ALIVE I'M STILL PRETENDING AFTER ALL THOSE YEARS I'M STILL PRETENDING TO BE ALIVE BECAUSE I CANNOT SAY I AM NOT BECAUSE WHAT IS HAPPENING IS INVISIBLE I CANNOT SHOW IT - I CANNOT SAY IT SO IT'S JUST A BIG BLOODY SECRET THAT I'M DEAD IS MY SECRET THAT I WOULD NEVER ADMIT IN PUBLIC THIS IS JUST A GAME - THIS IS A VIDEO PLAY DON'T TAKE IT SERIOUSLY I'M JUST PLAYING IT ON VIDEO PLAYING A CHARACTER LIKE THAT WHO THINKS HE'S DEAD AND THEN SETS OUT TO FIND THE PROOFS FOR IT IT'S A FILM SCRIPT & I'VE BLESSED MY MIRROR IMAGE I BLESSED MY MIRROR IMAGE TO SEE IF IT'S TRUE I'M NOT IN LOVE WITH MY MIRROR I LIKE MY SHADOW BUT I'M NOT IN LOVE WITH THE MIRROR AT ALL AAAAA I DON'T WANNA SEE MYSELF IN THE MIRROR BECAUSE I'M A LIAR - I SHOULDN'T I'M NOT A VAMPIRE AS LONG AS I SEE MYSELF IN THE MIRROR CANNOT BE A VAMPIRE I'M NOT A VAMPIRE I'M TELLING YOU - I'M NOT A VAMPIRE I HATE VAMPIRES I HATE MESSIAHS TOO I HATE VAMPIRES AND MESSIAHS OOOH OBSCENE OBSCENE REALITY OBSCENE REALITY OBSCENE REALITY THEY ARE OUT TO KILL ME & I AM WAITING TO COME NO RESULT YET NO RESULT YET I AM FIGHTING I AM FIGHTING I AM FIGHTING THEM YES I AM YES I AM DON'T GET ME SO VERY WRONG OOO AND TO THIS COMES THE LIFE WISH THE LIFE WISH OF THE DEAD IS STRONGER THAN THE DEATH WISH OF THE LIVING IT'S TWICE AS STRONG IT CAN DRIVE YOU COMPLETELY INSANE & MAYBE I'M JUST VERY FASHIONABLE WITH THIS BECAUSE EVERYBODY SAYS IT SINCE VERY LONG SINCE ALICE AND THE PO-PO-PO-POINT IS THAT THEY DON'T LIE I AM LYING - THEY DO NOT LIE BUT THEY ARE NOT THEY DON'T LIE BUT THEY ARE NOT I LIE BUT I AM IT'S A CHASM CHASM BETWEEN ME AND THE WORLD BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE THE CAPACITY OF LIVING DON'T HAVE THE LIVING'S CAPACITY I'M JUST TELLING IT TO YOU BECAUSE YOU DON'T FUCKING LISTEN TO ME DON'T PUSH ME BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE IT I'M SO SORRY TO SAY - BUT IT'S INTERESTING, NO? I'M NOT INTERESTING - I'M THE MOST INTERESTING & 2014 WE HAVE NOW '84, '94, 2004 - THIRTY YEARS I'M DEAD SINCE THIRTY YEARS ALONG WITH TIME I DIED AT THE SAME TIME AS TIME DID THAT'S HOW I EXPERIENCE IT LET ME TELL YOU HOW I FEEL (CHARLOTTE'S THEME) THIS IS MY ENTRÉE SONG IT'S A BEAUTIFUL SONG I CAN IMPOSE IT ON ANYTHING & DEATH METAL THERE WAS NO DEATH METAL YET WHEN I DIED IT STARTED A LITTLE BIT THEREAFTER DEATH ITSELF THE SCHULDINER'S DEATH ITSELF WAS FORMED IN 1984 YES ALL THOSE THINGS WERE FORMED IN 1984 DEATH METAL WAS BORN WHEN I DIED EXACTLY MY DEATH WAS INVISIBLE IT'S NOT THE REAL DEATH YET - THIS IS THE BARDO I'M GOING THROUGH THE BARDO BIOLOGICALLY ALIVE YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME THIS, HM YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME THIS DON'T HAVE TO DON'T HAVE TO BECAUSE IT'S NOT TRUE NOBODY DOES WHAT HE SAYS HE'S DOING & YOU ARE THIS OR THAT BUT YOU SAY I AM THIS OR THAT EVEN IF YOU'RE MARTIN SCORCESE IT'S NOT WHAT YOU ARE ANYTHING YOU DO IS TOTALLY SECONDARY THE JUDGEMENT IS SO DEMOCRATIC THE SAME MEASURE OF JOY AND PAIN IN THE VISIBILITY AND AT THE SAME TIME YOU HAVE TO SHOW IT OR MAY NOT SHOW IT OR YOU HAVE TO CONCEAL IT OR CANNOT CONCEAL IT - THE STATUS IS TAKING ITS TOLLS TAKING ITS TOLLS OH THE JEW KNOWS SO WELL EVERYTHING THE JEW KNOWS SO WELL 'THAT WAS SUFFOCATION - SOULS TO DENY' SUFFOCATION - UU-WAH-WAH-UU IT'S A BARGAIN IN ONE WORD IT'S A BARGAIN IT'S A COSMIC BARGAIN WE ARE THE MARTYRS OF THAT COSMIC BARGAIN MARTYRS OF THE COSMIC BARGAIN NOBODY KNOWS WHERE WE ARE & I'M UGLY TOO THAT'S WHY I'M WEARING A VEIL AN UGLY THIEF AND A COWARD HYPOCRITE DO YOU WANT TO MARRY ME YOU WANT TO MARRY ME, HA AND YOU WANT TO MARRY ME DO YOU WANT TO MARRY ME STILL YOU WANT TO MARRY ME STILL JUST BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME JUST BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME JUST BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME