THAT COULD BE A GOOD STARTING CUT THAT'S THE ROOM WHERE I LIVE I'M HOLDING THE DOOR OF MY KITCHEN THAT'S MY ALLEGORIC STATE OF MIND HOLDING THE DOOR OF MY KITCHEN THE SURVIVOR IS HERE I'M THE SURVIVOR NOW I CLOSE THE DOORS AND HERE COMES THE NEW PERCEPTION HERE COMES THE NEW PERCEPTION & I'M ALONE I'M NOT DISTURBING ANYONE I DO WHAT I WANT WHAT A PITY WHAT A FUCKING BIG LITTLE PITY THAT I DO NOT WANT A THING ALL I WANT IS TO WANT IT I'M BEHIND FIVE TRANSMISSIONS AND NO COMMUNICATION BETWEEN THEM JUST KEEP ME VERY FAR VERY FAR FROM REALITY BECAUSE I SPEAK BUT I'M NOT HEARD YOU DON'T KNOW THIS FEELING IT'S MY FEELING IT'S MY SPECIAL FEELING - THIS IS MY DOMAIN I NEED RESPECT NOT PITY & WHAT IS GOOD IS NOT GOOD? OSH ASKS ME: WHAT IS GOOD IS NOT GOOD SOLITUDE IS GOOD OSH SAYS: SOLITUDE IS GOOD IT'S THE GREATEST GRACE I CAN GIVE YOU THE GREATEST GRACE I GIVE YOU IS SOLITUDE HEEY WHY AREN'T YOU GRATEFUL - WHAT DO YOU WANT AND THEN I HUMBLY SAY: THE MISSION OSH OSH MY MISSION OH MY MISSION AND THE REST IS SILENCE IT'S SILENCE MY MISSION IS MY AFFAIR & IF YOU WANNA MISSION GET ONE OSH SAYS: IF YOU WANNA HAVE A MISSION - IT'S SO FEMININE OSH MOST OF THE TIMES SHE IS SHE OSH IS A SHE SOMETIMES SOMETIMES NOT BUT HE CAN BE SO FEMININE SO HE SAYS: IF YOU WANT A MISSION GO AND GET ONE I CAN'T GIVE YOU A MISSION OSH DOESN'T GIVE YOU A MISSION HE'LL GIVE YOU PERMISSION PERMISSION FOR MISSION AND THAT'S ALL OSH GIVES YOU PERMISSION FOR MISSION THAT'S TYPICALLY OSH & ALL YOU NEED TO KNOW IS HIS HOW YOU CALL THIS THE OPPOSITE TO OMNIPRESENCE OMNI-ABSENCE ONLY HIS OMNI-ABSENCE YOU FEEL BUT YOU CANNOT DIRECTLY COMMUNICATE WITH IT OR YOU CAN BUT IT'S USELESS WELL IF YOU WANT TO HAVE A GOOD TIME COMMUNICATE WITH OSH HE'S VERY ENTERTAINING PARTNER IN COMMUNICATION OSH IS ONLY JOKING YOU KNOW OSH IS CYNICAL - IT'S REALLY LIKE MESCALITO THE CLOSEST TO IT IS MESCALITO IT'S NOT SERIOUS OSH IS NOT LIKE THE OTHER GODS - HE'S VERY SPECIAL HE'S NOT A GOD OSH FIRST OF ALL BUT THE ANTI-GOD - ANTITHESIS OF GODHEAD & I AM THE LIE - I CANNOT LIE I'M THE LIE EXPRESSING ITSELF I'M THE LIE EXPRESSING ITSELF - I'M NOT LYING THAT'S GOOD FOR A HAIKU IT'S A GREAT HAIKU THANK YOU OSH FOR THE GREAT HAIKU HAIKUS I ALWAYS CAN DO LONGER POEM I COULDN'T WRITE I WROTE EIGHT POEMS ALTOGETHER IN MY LIFE IT'S A BOOK: 888: EIGHT POEMS THEY ARE VERY SHORT POEMS THE OTHERS WERE JUST FUNCTIONALIST TEXTS Y'KNOW BUT REAL POEM WHICH HAS ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE - & IT'S REMARKABLE 1999 NINETEEN-NINETY-NINE IT'S CUT INTO TWO THE PROCESS NO MORE EVOLUTION REALLY NO MORE GAPS NO MORE LEAPS - IT'S ALL ALTOGETHER NOW IT'S AN IMPLODING ABYSS WHERE WE ARE IN IS THE IMPLODING ABYSS RIGHT NOW I BELIEVE IF TIME WAS ALIVE HAD NOT DIED IN 1984 WE WOULD BE BETTER OFF NOW THIS WHOLE ISLAMIC INVASION WOULDN'T HAPPEN IF TIME WAS ALIVE I BELIEVE IT COULDN'T HAPPEN IF TIME WAS ALIVE & THERE ARE TWO BLOODLINES OF COURSE A'CROSS THERE IS A BLOODLINE THROUGH THE BLOOD THE ROYAL BLOOD AND THERE IS A BLOODLINE WHICH IS NOT INHERITABLE THAT'S THE MUTATIONAL BLOODLINE THERE IS INHERITANCE AND MUTATION THESE ARE THE TWO BLOODLINES THEY ARE CROSSING EACH OTHER MUTATION CAN HAPPEN ABSOLUTELY RANDOM ABSOLUTELY RANDOM - AND YOU CANNOT REALLY INHERIT IT & NOT ONLY THOSE TWO GUYS IMMORTAL FROM NORWAY ARE IMMORTAL ALL OF THEM - ANY WAY THEY DIE THE BLACK GENERATION OF NORDIC VIKINGDOM THEY ARE ALL IMMORTAL SATAN SAVED THEM THANK YOU SATAN IT WAS A GREAT JOB THANK YOU FOR THE POTENTIAL THE POTENTIAL OF THE UR THE ARMY OF THE UR & IN THE UR THE TWO - THE CROSS - MIXES IT'S A CROSS THE UR: BLOODLINE AND THE MUTANTS AND NO ONE ELSE THE ARMED FORCES OF THE UR IS A BLOOD BROTHERHOOD THE GENE-DEMOCRACY'S TOTAL VICTORY MATERIALIZED BY THE ROCK AND ROLL REVOLUTION THAT EQUALIZED HUMANITY OR SHARED IT INTO TWO CLEARLY SHARED IT INTO TWO & IF YOU CANNOT RUN IF YOU CANNOT RUN - HIDE THAT'S WHAT I'M TOLD YOU CANNOT RUN, FUCK YOU, THEN GO HIDE THAT'S HOW OSH TREATS HIS OWN SON LEARN FROM IT AND IT'S THE INSTINCT THAT TELLS ME TO HIDE MY GOOD INSTINCT TELLS ME TO HIDE BEHIND A VEIL EVEN HIDE EVEN IN MY ROOM IF I'M VISIBLE I PUT MYSELF OUT TO VISIBILITY BY THE CAMERA AND I'M WEARING A VEIL NOT TO BE RECOGNIZABLE THAT'S MY IMAGE & CHARLOTTE COMES IN THE GUISE OF A MUSLIM WOMAN A VEIL ENFORCED ON HER FOR SECURITY MEASURES THIS FUCKING MOHAMED THING WITH THE WOMEN VEILING THEMSELVES IT WAS BENEVOLENT BECAUSE IT WAS ABOUT SECURITY HE KNEW THAT HIS PEOPLE ARE SUBHUMAN RAPISTS SO SUGGESTED THE WOMEN TO RATHER VEIL YOURSELF DARLING THAN PUT THEM OUT TO DESIRE YOU & THE BEST WITH THE SWEARING GESTURE IS IF YOU HOLD DOWN THE OTHER FINGERS IN THE SAME POSITION AS WHAT YOU USE FOR THE FIST SO BASICALLY THIS IS JUST AN OPEN FIST THESE TWO FINGERS CLOSE DOWN IN THE FIST AND OPEN TO THE SWEAR BUT THIS PART DOESN'T CHANGE IT'S IMPORTANT FOR THE MIND BECAUSE GESTURES ARE IN DIRECT CONNECTION WITH THE MIND THEY ARE ACTUALLY THERAPEUTIC THESE KIND OF GESTURES THESE SINGULAR VERY MEANINGFUL GESTURES & THIS IS THE SWEARING GESTURE AND THIS, THE OTHER ONE, IS ALMOST THE SAME BUT YET IT'S THE JUDGING GESTURE THE SAVING GESTURE AND THE JUDGING GESTURE IS EXACTLY THE SAME WITH THE JUDGING GESTURE YOU SHOW DOWNWARDS WITH THE SWEARING YOU SHOW UPWARDS IT COULD BE STRAIGHT AS WELL BUT IT'S NICER BECAUSE OF THE HUMAN BALANCE THE BAPHOMET IS THE BALANCE IT MEANS THE BALANCE EQUILIBRIUM AND JUSTICE - EQUILIBRIUM AND JUSTICE THESE TWO THINGS IT MEANS & YOU CAN AS WELL CHANGE THE TWO GESTURES HERE YOU SWEAR - THEN YOU JUST CHANGE THE ARMS ONLY THE ARMS YOU HAVE TO MOVE MOVE IT AT THE ELBOW AND THEN FINALLY YOU CAN CLOSE THE WHOLE THING INTO ONE GESTURE STILL KEEPING THE FIST POSTURE OF THE FINGERS YOU CLOSE THE TWO HANDS INTO A GESTURE WHERE BOTH FISTS ARE PRESSING EACH OTHER & NO, THE EARTH IS SHAKING BENEATH MY FEET THAT'S WHY YOU DON'T HAVE THE BALANCE IT'S NOT ME THE IMBALANCE IT'S THE EARTH THAT'S SHAKING IT'S THE EARTH THAT'S SHAKING BENEATH MY FEET MY TREMBLING FEET OSH SAYS - OSH WHO IS NONE TO HIS SON WHO IS NOT SAYS: HAT ER SEINE HAUSAUFGABE GEMACHT SCHON? SPEAKS GERMAN OSH MOST OFTEN TO ME HE SPEAKS IN GERMAN NO IT'S NOT HIS MOTHER LANGUAGE NO NO NO NO NO HIS FATHER LANGUAGE MAYBE - NOT HIS MOTHER LANGUAGE & 'SONS OF ODIN FROM THE ALBUM GODS OF WAR' SONS OF ODIN WAS THE SONG AND IT WAS THERION WITH SONS OF ODIN HE USED TO MIX VERY WELL THE BACKGROUND OSH ACTUALLY IS A DJ - THAT'S THE FIRST THING HE IS MIXING THE BACKGROUND THAT'S HOW YOU HAVE TO IMAGINE OSH: AS A DJ THAT'S THE EASIEST APPROACH CAN IMAGINE IT ANYHOW THAT'S THE TYPICAL IN OSH THAT YOU IMAGINE IT ANYHOW - HE HAS NO IMAGE BUT YOU MAY DEPICT IT EVERYONE HAS HIS OWN DEPICTION ABOUT HIM OSH IS FOR THE INDIVIDUAL - IT'S NOT FOR THE COLLECTIVE & SOMETIMES IT COMES UP THE ACCUSATION FROM THE SUBCONSCIOUS BELOW WHEREAS I AM PROSELYTIZING ATHEISM AS A RELIGION BECAUSE I CALL IT ATHEIST CHURCH AND THINGS LIKE THAT ATHEIST CHURCH WAS FOUNDED AS A FORTRESS AGAINST RELIGION WE ARE WAGING AN ANTI-RELIGIOUS WAR & THEY PLAY SO MUCH OF THIS POWER METAL IT'S VERY VERY VERY GOOD OH DON'T HAVE TO THINK A LITTLE BIT I LOVE IT - MAKES ME FORGET EVERYTHING IT'S A HEALING LIKE DARKTHRONE NEVER CALM ME DOWN NOR MAYHEM - JUST MADE ME MORE NERVOUS THE NERVOSITY CAME FROM THE FACT THAT WHY A GENERATION HAS TO BE WASTED WHY IT HAS TO BE WASTED AND THE ONLY ALTERNATIVE YOU SEE NOT TO WASTE A GENERATION IS TO SEND THEM ON THE FRONTLINE TO DIE AND THESE ARE THE TWO OPTIONS WASTED OR SACRIFICED THAT'S THE SPECTRUM OF YOUR CHOICE MY DEAR WHICH ONE YOU WANNA CHOOSE THEN SACRIFICE OR WASTE IT'S A HARD CHOICE SO HARD THE LIGHT GOES OUT FROM IT & NOW I'M WATCHING THE EVOLUTION OF PORNOGRAPHY EVOLUTION OF PORNOGRAPHY - THAT'S MY STUDY TO OPPOSE IT TO CULTURAL MARXISM - THAT'S MY IDEA THE PORN REVOLUTION IS DIFFERENT THAN THE SEX REVOLUTION IT'S THE NEXT PHASE OF IT LET'S SAY BUT AT THE SAME TIME ALSO THE OPPOSITE IT'S THE ENDING TIME FINAL CLASH TORSCHLUSS & HER NAME IS ESMERALDA ESMERALDA - THAT'S HER NAME ESMERALDA IS LATINO I DON'T LIKE LATINO PORN LATINO PORN IS ALWAYS UNSAFE LATINO PORN IS NOT SINFUL - CANNOT BE SINFUL ENOUGH IT EASIER CAN BE CRIMINAL THAN SINFUL THAT'S THE PROBLEM WITH IT IN A PORN MOVIE YOU HAVE TO SEE THROUGH THE CAMERA YOU HAVE TO SEE WHO MADE IT USUALLY IT'S ANONYMOUS OR PSEUDONYMOUS NOW THERE ARE SOME EXHIBITIONIST PORNOGRAPHERS WHO COME WITH THE CAR AND SALUTE LIKE A LOGO PROUD LIKE PIMPS EXACTLY - LIKE ELECTRONIC PIMPS & BUT THIS ESMERALDA IS VERY NICE ACTUALLY THE OTHER GIRL - THERE ARE TWO GIRLS THE OTHER GIRL IS NICER BUT SHE IS ALSO VERY NICE NOW VERY SOPHISTICATED FELLATIO IS GOING ON BUT DON'T WANT TO COMMENT ON IT DON'T EVEN WANT TO WATCH IT - I HAVE TO TALK ABOUT IT IT'S JUST THERE TO INSPIRE INSPIRE MY INTELLECT TO TALK ABOUT PORNOGRAPHY AND BASE EVERYTHING ON IT AS SAVIOUR WHAT IS BRAVER THAN THAT? & DIDN'T TALK WHAT I WANTED TO TALK ABOUT I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER WHAT WAS IT SOMETHING ABOUT SUICIDE